E-Jay, Ti Lik and myself, we are known to be the inseparable F4. Me being the Empress was always seen with my 2 trusted bodyguards by my side.
We used to do many things together like in this case took part in the protest together, and charged for illegal protest and assembly together.
With the latest development, and Ti Lik choosing to plead guilty due to his work commitment, I suddenly felt so alone without my trusted bodyguards watching over me or fighting alongside with me.
I remember chatting with Sylvester on Monday, who asked me how am I doing, I told him I don’t know if end of the day, what I am going through, to stick by my believe and my conviction is worth it, but I know I have to carry on, not for myself, but for my children. I am doing all this to pave the way for the younger generation, I hope by the time my kids are older, there is true democracy in Singapore.
Yet this afternoon after our lunch break, while Carl is doing his cross-examination, my handphone rings for several times, unable to pick up at that point of time and not knowing who called, I didn’t think much of it. When I reached home, I realized the school was trying to contact me because my son is sick and having a high fever. I was filled with remorse and guilt for not being there for him.
The price all of us – believers of democracy, have to pay to carry on with the trial. Of course, this is exactly what the PAPies knew and how they using it to kill us.. Some of us has the luxury of time on our side to continue the fight, while others like E-Jay, Ti Lik, Jeffrey George, Rajan and Suraya did not.
As a mother, a woman, I do have my limitation and emotional moments. I wouldn’t know if end of the day, what is going to come out of this trial, this fight, what I have lost along the way but I still chose to continue on.
To my remaining 12 comrades, thank you for giving me all the support I need to carry on this fight.
Thank you Siok Chin and John for always talking to me, lending me a listening ear.
Thank you Seelan for always checking if I am feeling ok. I feel your concern.
Thank you Sylvester for always sharing with me and assuring me you know what I am going through.
Thank you Shafiie for the butter bread that you sweetly order for me for breakfast on Monday.
Thank you Kai Xiong for always coming up to me and sharing some jokes to make me laugh.
Thank you Francis, for now you are the only one addressing me as Empress.
Thank you Gandhi, for the generous compliments to me each day at our trial which never fails to perk me up (ok I admit I am vain, and I loves compliments..haha)
Thank you Dr Chee, Carl, Jufri Snr for working through all those cross-examniation and speaking up not just for us, but the rest of the Singaporeans.
Thank you E-Jay, for the chat we share in this early morning. Your assurance and support gives me new strength and I know I have a friend in you.
Last but not least, thank you PAPies, for making all this possible. For you have taught me to be a strong woman, to standby my conviction and belief against all odds. You have educate my political knowledge along the way and develop true friendship from the TBT 18.
May 27th, 2009 at 6:53 am
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May 27th, 2009 at 11:44 am
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May 27th, 2009 at 6:20 pm
serve u right….
May 28th, 2009 at 10:45 am
it’s very surprising that u didn’t (or maybe forget) to mention the support from your husband or family.
just plead guilty and shut up. please do not make a mockery out of PATRIOTISM.
no time to attend trial, got time for lame protest. isn’t it a perfect excuse?
May 28th, 2009 at 10:47 am
what political storm? it wasn’t even a sneeze.
those people knew that it was illegal and yet they defiantly went ahead.
were they trying to tell everyone that they are above the laws?
no one would sympathise with them for their warped self-righteousness and indignation.
May 28th, 2009 at 11:50 am
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May 28th, 2009 at 2:37 pm
“those people knew that it was illegal and yet they defiantly went ahead”
there will not be a new China if Sun Yat Sen is to “just follow law”.
May 28th, 2009 at 5:58 pm
Jas, u will never be alone in your struggle for democracy. Even though I cannot be there for the legal battle, I will always be supportive in spirit and provide a listening ear.
The PAP has become expert in playing the game of “divide and conquer”. They have also made use of the instruments of the state to repress us and increase the price we pay for our dissent.
Fortunately, we have truth and justice on our side, and one day I believe people will come to see our point of view and recognize that our rights are worth preserving.
But no matter what happens, at least we can say we have been true to our convictions.
E-Jay
May 29th, 2009 at 6:58 am
Keep smiling….You go to sleep knowing You are doing the Right thing. The path seems hazy but it will all clear up some-day. Meanwhile ignore the negative comments. Hold on to the seen and unseen support You are getting. You are Brave. I salute You! God Bless.
May 29th, 2009 at 1:18 pm
First of all, I don’t think TBT is a protest.It was only a peaceful gathering,not to mention procession.For those who want to take part in the coming GE,pls plead guilty so that the fine will be less than 2k.For those who want to continue the fight,the fine will be more, you may be disqualified to stand as a candidate in the GE.So you decide.
May 29th, 2009 at 2:13 pm
Reading some of the pro-PAP replies, I think Adolf Hitler would love to be the leader of the ruling party in Singapore.
May 29th, 2009 at 7:46 pm
Jas,
Know that you are valued by the TBT group for all you’ve been doing for our struggle against oppression.
We will overcome!
one-of-us
May 29th, 2009 at 11:10 pm
Many Singapore men like to watch soccer so they can cheer their heroes score goals.
Me? I like to watch people like you kick Lee Hsien Loong’s arse.
May 30th, 2009 at 9:42 pm
I wait to see when the WP,SPP,NSP to kick GAN Kim Yong ass and give Stupid Gan Kim Yong ball roll off and left him a pussy. cool banana
May 31st, 2009 at 12:04 pm
I will want to see SDP get kick Ass by LKY.Don`t waste time seeing SDP LIED STORY the web page. it all lied to cheat sporean !!!!! if i vote i vote WP,SPP and NSP !! not SDP !!!!
June 3rd, 2009 at 10:56 pm
Ah yah Boon Pin… As long you vote Opposition, good for you. It seems that you don’t trust the PAP but you have lots of trust of the MSM such as Straits Times and MediaCorp that publishes onesided news as they are owned by the PAP government. Very strange bedfellows!
June 6th, 2009 at 7:45 pm
It seems you are having a good time with so many comrades sharing the same presumptious thoughts that Singaporeans need your help.
The fact that you all have the potential power to keep the ruling party on their toes cannot be denied.
But don’t forget that it is only because there is freedom of speech, law and order in Singapore that you are enjoying the court outings.
I personally will thank all of you for keeping the police engaged. For the policeman to take on Phd and lawyers is no mean task and I think the SPF are doing quite well.
Remember to know when to pull the handbrake.
June 12th, 2009 at 12:26 am
Sylvester Lim,
it my right to believe msm and not believe msm,i am sure you are a PAP Fan and pls find out b4 you speak !!
June 23rd, 2009 at 10:46 am
Nothing for admiration for you. While I don’t think I am ready to take the path you’re taking now, you can be assured that I’m voting Wisely.